Your Future.


It's been two weeks...
Sorry for not posting.... I had my exams and I was definitely relaxing....*lol*

Well, since this is the exam season and the results are being declared for the 10th grade and PU students, I thought of writing about my experience and my choices....

From what I remember, the first dream I ever had (dream meaning an ambition) was to become an artist. I mean, painter. I loved painting. Then after a while, since I loved history, I wanted to become an archaeologist. Digging and finding historic stuff...sounds so cool. I remember telling my parents that I wanted to take Arts, in my PU. My mom laughed, telling 'Arts' is for failures, for people who are not intelligent enough to take science. I did not know then, that it was not my mom who thought that way but, it was what the society had filled up, in her brain.
My next dream was a teacher. Ah, how I loved teaching and making people understand.
That was the last, I guess....But later, in my PU I realized how much I had fallen in love with Biology, with Plant science and that was why I took up B.Sc.

I was a rank student in my school days. Though, now if I think back about it, I feel stupid because the portions were a joke. But, yes, for my age, I was intelligent.
Everybody expected me to get a great rank in my 10th grade. I could feel it, even in their conversation. ''Hey, you'll do fine! Don't worry! You're a rank student!! You're so intelligent, you'll do it...It's easy for you isn't it?''
Well, I did get a good rank and I got into a good college too....But I think, around this time, I started to lose interest. Maybe because my environment changed or because the portions were too hectic, I realized that, the thing I could do easily, I couldn't do anymore. I couldn't 'score marks' by just studying. It wasn't ''easy''.
But, I worked hard. I finished my PU and CET....
My parents wanted me to take up engineering, my brother told me to take up medical. I had already decided to pursue Bachelor of Science. I loved biology and I couldn't learn about it in engineering. And I knew that I couldn't do medical. I was not confident about it.
So, here I am, in my final year of B.Sc. I was stubborn and I didn't back down on my decision.

Now, I am at another point in my life where I have to decide and choose my next path.
I am at a standstill and my mind is completely blank. I'm still wavering....I'm still not confident in my own abilities....I realize that I am still too dependent on others. I don't have the courage to take a decision...Gahhhh.... I should stop. *stop the negativityyy*
Even now, my mom says, WHAT IF, WHAT had taken up engineering, you could've easily applied for masters...Even I think that way sometimes.....
As Robin Sharma says, stay away from negativity. It's actually hard when the whole society is negative.

What I want to say, is that, even though we are in the 21st century, our society is not. I am damn sure that all parents think that engineering or medical is the only way to survive in this world. I am not saying they are wrong. Of course, it is an awesome job. But, it's not the only thing that's out there!! Will you please imagine for a minute, how the world would be if everybody was only an engineer or a doctor?? Are you stupid? What would we do for food? what would we do for entertainment? what would we do for vaccines? (excuse me, but scientists invent vaccines not engineers)
There would be no shops or shopkeepers, no bakeries, no pastries, no chats..... I guess the whole business world wouldn't exist. All banks and finances and secretaries... Wow.
There would be no museums full of art, no sculptures, no beauty.
NO music! No swimmers, no Olympics or cricket or football....
How would you like that... *all football fans will die*

And it is hard to convince them. You can't.
So please, before you take up a decision, think, think a 100 times. PLAN.
Plan your whole life.
There are many other ways to live your life other than becoming an engineer or a doctor. And I assure you, the pay is also good.
I want to eradicate this low thinking that the society fills in our minds, telling only engineers or doctors are respected. An engineering degree has a different level than a BSc  degree. Bull shit.
(and damn you USA, for undermining a three year degree course! You think we did not work hard for these 3 years huh??!!! *grrrr*)
DON'T LISTEN. Don't listen to what everybody says. Even if it is your own parents. IF they tell you to do what you want, to pursue whatever you want, then hell yeah! Give them a big hug and kiss 'cause they are awesome parents! (I mean which parent will come and say, follow your dream, go do whatever you want. I'll be here for you, talk to me if you're lost...AND not scream their heads off)
But, I guess all parents are not like that. They tell you what the society has been telling them.
SO, don't listen. Take your time, find out what it is you want. What your dream is, what makes you truly happy. Then, go do that.
IF you truly love engineering, then take it up! Be it computers or civil or mechanical or whatever. IF you truly love to be a doctor and save lives (and hate sleeping and want to be awake for the rest of your life *lol*) then, take up medical....
IF you love accounts and finances and all that then take up B.Com. (I'm sorry, I don't know much about this field, but if you have passion then isn't it fine!)
IF you love Ayurveda, take up Ayurveda
IF you love history, take history.
IF you love swimming, go swim!
IF you love to sing, go sing!
IF you love playing piano, then play it!
IF you love science, then take up science.

BUT, the most important thing is that, you need to plan it out. Don't procrastinate and put everything to the last moment. AND you should also work hard. If you want to be a swimmer, go join a team, work hard, participate and gain experience and then, one day you will definitely be standing in an Olympic stadium. If you want to be a musician, then join a class, learn piano, or join an academy, participate and practice, practice and one day you will stand in front of a concert and feeling so content with yourself...


And lastly, if you're like me, who doesn't know what to do.....then slap yourself. Go find out out what it is that you want. (I know, it is hard). Ask yourself what it is that you want, what makes you truly happy and then do it.

Don't be afraid. It's time, my dear, to come out of the cocoon. To come out of the sheltered life. You need to learn to become independent and take your own decisions.
You need to broaden your perspective and learn. Learn more about yourself and more about this world...

I know some people are lost and feel like they have no one to properly guide them....They don't get what their teachers are trying to say and everybody else is throwing their own opinions at them...
For those people, if you have any clarifications, I am always here... I'm here...

Lots of Love,

Stay Healthy, Stay Happy.


Happy Mother's Day!

It is Mother's Day!
And two days for my final exams.... *hehehehe*
This is a break from studies..... So, how are you doing? How is life treating you? How are you coping? Bored of doing work? Then, get out and enjoy the nature..... Also, read my blogs. *lol*

In this post, I would like to talk about my mother. MY mother.

Everybody says their mothers are fantastic. That they are the best. There's a saying that goes, ''there may be a bad child, but there never is a bad mother'' or something along those lines.....
I don't know about others. But, I can confidently say that my mother is the best.
Of course, I'm the second child. So, I was pampered by her (and everybody else, which is why I'm a brat now,hahaha). Wow, but that doesn't mean they don't love my brother. Sometimes, I think my parents love him more. Well.....the problem of all siblings.. *lol* JK.

My mom was born on October 27, 1967. I don't know much about her childhood, but I've heard my grandparents say that she was very quiet and obedient. Which I can believe without a doubt. But, I think she was funny too. During those times, there was no cell phones and such. So (this is a story I've heard form my granny) once, my mom's friend had pulled her along to a movie. There were no buses as often as now, either and my mom was scared as hell. She refused, but still...(I think her friend was very bossy). Anyway, she came back late and was so scared of her parents screwing her. But my grandparents understood. My granny told me that they were so worried about her, that they went looking for her.....
And my mom herself has told me very little about her school days...I've heard her telling that she used to walk back with her big gang of friends, from the college to the bus stop (My mom studied in MES She told that when I complained about walking from the college to the bus stop. *kekeke*
Oh, my Mom was beautiful. (unlike me and She still IS). She had flawless skin and I wonder if anybody was bold enough to tell her they liked her. *hahaha, okay I'll stop with the useless thoughts* I guess some things do remain a mystery. One day, I'll take the courage and ask her.

Anyway, flash forward to now.
From what I know, I can say that my mom has worked very hard. She has endured so many things till now. She has worked really hard. I salute her for her endurance. She also gets hurt, like me, when some people don't understand her. She tells me everything. All I can do is listen.

I can't bear watching her cry. I can tell when she's sad and angry. And I can even see her controlling her tears. So, I cry too. I can't help her in anyway. That frustrates me even more. All I can do is work hard and lead a good life, because that's what she wants.

I'm more scared of her than my dad. *lol* I understand my dad scolds me for my own good. My mom does that too. But, she's lethal. She uses her words in such a way that it's like an arrow to the heart. It hurts and hurts. She uses sarcasm and tells me whatever I had declared in the past, and asks whether what I am doing now is true to what I said.

And like all stupid children, I take out my anger on her. But, isn't she perfect? She bounces and comes back. Even though I might have shouted in anger, she always understands. She is the only person who has never, NEVER told me that I am short tempered.

I blast k-pop music all around the house and even then, she is the only person who has NEVER ever told me to stop doing this. Even my grandparents, my dad and my brother tell me to turn it off. But, not my mom. You don't know how happy I feel. I feel accepted. [After I came to know about k-pop, I really wanted my brother to understand. More than anybody else, I wanted his support. Even if he didn't listen to k-pop...........Eh, well.......I can't force him. But still....] ( Bro, if you're reading this, then :P  *merong*)

And my mom is funny. Nobody knows this. My relatives don't believe me, but I know. When my mom is relaxed and happy, she is funny. In the way she talks. You'll have to experience it to know. hehehe....
She loves sweets. Even if she has toothache. She loves her Dusshera Dolls. She is particular about Cleanliness. Yup, that's where I get the clean-freakiness from....She loves her plants.....

She taught me how to write, told me to have my own handwriting instead of copying others. She taught me how to talk to others. She teaches me everyday. She tells me when I do something wrong. She doesn't scold me, she tells me calmly with her reasoning. And that leaves me even more awestruck. And with experience, I can say, hands-down, whatever she tells is true.
I had forgotten to take the umbrella when she reminded me and I came home drenched. If she tells me something will happen, it will happen. *jinx jinx double jinx, triple jinx quadruple jinx*

And so, Maa.. Thank you for everything.
I love you more than anything.

And also, I know that many people out there do not have the fortune of having a mother. (They might have lost both parents or maybe their mother or father)
To them, there are no words, no gift, no gesture which will comfort them. No matter how much I/we tell them that they are loved, they don't have anything to worry about, the feeling is different from a 'mother'/a parent.
Because, nobody can replace a person. Because, we are all different in our essence itself. A person's true nature is so unique, that's why it is irreplaceable.
So, to those lonely souls, I want to give you a big, warm, bear hug. A tight hug. And say, you are doing awesomely well. I don't know where your parents are, but if they are with God, and they are watching you, I am damn sure that they will be so proud of you. They will be looking after you, like guardian angels. If you ever feel lonely, I am here. I am here. I am always here.

And to my mother, (even though she'll never read this...)
This is the song which I dedicate to you.
This song is my mother's caller tone.
Because the song perfectly tells whatever I want my mother to know.

(Thank you) I can’t express with words
(Thank you) I’m here because of you
You always embraced my young and immature self
(Love you) Words I couldn’t tell you
(I love you) I’m finally telling you now
Now I know your heart and how you always believed in me
And I know, Yes I know, you always look to me
And I know, Yes I know, even if the world turns away
Love you mother, I love you
Like no other, I thank you
I endlessly shed tears when I think about you
Love you Mother, I love you
Like no other, I thank you
Now I’ll be your strength and return that bright smile
And you know, You know,
You know, I love you, I thank you
(Thank you) Wherever you go, don’t be small
(Thank you) Because I’m standing right behind you
Even if your back is hurting or your eyes grow dim
(Love you) Words I’m so bad at saying
(I love you) Finally, I’m saying them
You’re the prettiest in the world, I’ll place you in my eyes
Look at me, don’t rush anymore
Lay down your heart, it’s alright now, slow down
Because of your endless love, your unchanging love
I am here today
Thank you Mother, I love you

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Ahhh, awesome song......*bawling my eyes out*
Thank you for reading.

Lots of Love.
Stay Healthy, Stay Happy..


P.S: JK means just kidding. :P
AND, Nam Woohyun's first solo album is out.....( He is Infinite's Lead Singer. So, that pretty much tells, about his awesome voice ) And you know me...*internally screaming*

The Love Circle.

[ Japanese; Mitsu means light ; Nao means honest  ; Akira means Intelligent]

It was just another day at school. Same old, same old. The building, the crowd, the gossip and the laughter.
'Hey, Nao! wait up!'
Nao turned back, smiling at the voice. 'Mitsu! Haha, I'm earlier than you. That's surprising!' she giggled.
'That's my line.' said Mitsu. 'So, did you complete the assignment?'
'Yes. Finally, the last one and we're free!' she said excitedly.
'Oh, so you're really excited about the upcoming school festival huh?'
'Aren't you?'
'Well, I'm not in charge of anything, so I'll just attend the festival. I'm thinking of calling Akira.'
'Oooo, you'll have a date then! Let's do our best' smiled Nao. It was their last year and this was going to be their last festival. Nao was really excited because she was selected as a volunteer for the festival. She couldn't wait to make new friends and awesome memories.
'Let's go. It's almost time for the bell.' said Nao, pulling along Mitsu.
With the amount of work to be done for the festival, everyone had to jump in and help the Committee members. Volunteers and non-volunteers alike. They were cleaning the classrooms and prepping the blackboard, along with others.
'What do you think?' asked Nao, at no one in particular, looking at her art on the blackboard.
'It's great. Wow, you draw very well.'
Nao turned around and saw a boy. He was smiling broadly.
'Mmm...Thanks...?' she said confusedly. Never seen him before, she thought.
'I'm Jack' he said. 'You're beautiful and you draw well!'
Um. What. Excuse me? Who are you? Shut your face..... were the thoughts going on in Nao's head.
'Jack!' called a girl. 'There you are!! I was looking everywhere for you, baby' she said as she came closer and pulled him away. Thank god she did. Nao didn't know what to reply for his senseless way of introducing himself.
The festival was in two days. It was chaotic everywhere. The teachers and students alike were excited as well as tensed. They had to make sure the main chief guests were tended to and that they enjoyed the festival. Nao was running around doing whatever was assigned to her. She would spot Jack, somewhere along the way, most of the time, talking to a girl. He would turn and smile, waving at her. She would do the same. Well, it didn't hurt to be kind.
And she knew that she couldn't judge a person just because of one conversation.
But, they were assigned to the same jobs often and so, she would meet him along the way and had to make some sort of conversation with him. He was good, she thought. Straight forward and funny.
And never alone. He was always with his gang of boys, who were also good people. Nao was happy that she was getting to make new friends.
Finally, the day of the school festival arrived. Nao was assigned to help at the food stalls. So she did her best, and had a great time. She laughed, ran around, tasted the food and cleaned as much as she could. The other volunteers helped her too.
'Hey, Nao!' called Mitsu.
'Ah! Hey! How's it going? How are you Akira? Do you like the festival?' asked Nao, looking at Mitsu's boyfriend.
'Yes. It's very good. You're doing a good job!' he smiled.
'Thank you.'
'You should've seen her the past week. She was literally a skeleton, with the amount of running around she did' laughed Mitsu.
'Hahahaha....True, but it's all worth it, if the festival comes out well' said Nao.
'Well, we'll go around and look at the other programs' said Mitsu.
'Have fun! I'll see you later!' Nao shouted.
'Who's this?'
'The one in this picture.'
'That's my best friend Mitsu' said Nao.
'Wow, she's a bomb!' said Jack. Really. Boys, Nao thought.
'I know she is.'
'She's beautiful.'
'I know.' How many times will you say the same thing?
'Does she have a boyfriend?'
'Yes, she does.'
'Really?'s fine' he grinned.
'Fine for what?' Nao asked.
'Nothing.' he replied.
Oh well, she had to make sure whether the food reached the guests so she left Jack, hanging with his ''nothing''.......
The festival ended with a great success. Everybody was happy with the results.
Nao was on Cloud nine. She had met lots of new people- juniors and her classmates from other subjects, and had had lots of fun with them.
She couldn't wait to tell about it to Mitsu.
She also was dying to hear how Mitsu's date went.

'It was very nice.' said Mitsu.
'ohhhh really?? What did you guys do?' asked Nao, a wide grin on her face.
'Stop thinking stupid things. We walked around and saw the programs and ate food and went back. That's it'
'Well, that's what I meant too' said Nao.
'Yeah yeah, I know' smiled Mitsu.
Nao was happy for her. Mitsu had worked hard for this.
Even after the school festival ended and classes resumed, the volunteers were still called to hand in their reports and to finish up some of the remaining tasks.
So, Nao kept meeting Jack, and every time they did meet, he would ask of Mitsu.
She wasn't that naive. She knew that he had a crush on Mitsu. But, she didn't mind it too much. She had already told about him to Mitsu and she was the least bit interested. She laughed thinking of Mitsu's reaction. 'Who? Tell him to mind his own business' she had said.
When it came to such things, Mitsu was really mature and responded level-headedly.
Nao was just happy with her new friends.....That was enough....
It was almost evening. The classes had ended and Nao and Mitsu were heading home, chatting animatedly.
Nao turned around to see Jack, leaning against the wall.
'Hey' she said. 'Ah, Jack, this is Mitsu. Mitsu, Jack'. That's what he had wanted she thought. He had been pestering her to introduce him to Mitsu. Well, the ball was in Mitsu's court now.
'Hello. I've heard a lot about you from Nao.' said Jack.
'I'm sure you have. Even I've heard a lot about you too' Mitsu said, with a plastic smile plastered to her face.
Nao was trying her best to control her laugh. That's Mitsu. She smashed it, without battling an eyelash.
They talked as they headed back home.
Later, after jack had left, Nao turned to Mitsu, awaiting her answers.
'Well, well, one look at that guy and you can know that he's a big flirt.'
Nao laughed. True, she thought. But......why hadn't she realized this??
The days passed by..... And Nao missed the festival. She had enjoyed it too much and whenever she met her friends in the corridors or the grounds, she would smile and run to them. And often, she noticed that her eyes would search for Jack. Weird. If she spotted him, she would smile broadly. Whether he looked back or not, she felt happy just looking at him.
What was this though? She didn't know anything about him. But, she wanted to. She wanted to be his friend. Hmm... ah, yes. There's the word. Affection.
She told this to Mitsu, and Mitsu was all hysterical.
'You like him!! you like him!'
'Huh???? Whaaat??? No way!' Nao laughed. 'I don't even know him! He's nowhere near my expectations of a boyfriend.'
'You say that, but you still like him though' Mitsu said. 'It's not a bad thing. Just enjoy the feeling.'
Nao couldn't win this argument. But, she knew she didn't like Jack. No way. Bleghh...
Now was not the time for such things. She had to concentrate on her future. And she knew her feelings toward him were not that way. Not even a least bit.
'Hey, can you give my number to your friend and ask her to text me?' asked Jack.
'Hmm...I don't know. I'll ask her' Nao said. In her mind, she was already half-dead from laughing. She knew what Mitsu's answer would be. Did Jack think that her personality was cute and sweet and doll-like? He was so wrong.
'Huhh?? Who the hell does he think he is? Why should I text him?? I don't even know him.' shouted Mitsu.
'Hey, so shall I give your number to him? He'll definitely text you though' Nao said.
'Yeah, that's better. That's what he should've asked in the first place. Let me see what he'll text. That bastard '
Nao laughed, thinking about it. See, she knew Jack was into her. She didn't feel bad. But, it was sad that he didn't talk to her as much.....

'So, did he text you yesterday?' asked Nao.
'Don't remind me. That bastard! He didn't let me do my homework. Texting on and on and on. Who does he think he is!' said Mitsu furiously.
'Hahahaha, does Akira know?' Nao felt bad for a moment. She didn't want to come in between them, or let anybody else.
'Don't worry about Akira. He's far more intelligent and understanding. He won't say anything. He'll agree with me. And he'll laugh at Jack's face' said Mitsu, proudly.
'I agree.' laughed Nao.
And the texts continued... Mitsu wouldn't respond to most of them and Nao couldn't help but laugh at Mitsu's outbursts.
'Hey, Nao' said Mitsu one day.
'I met Jack the other day.' said Mitsu.
'Yeah? What did he say?'
'Nothing, we just talked for a while. And in the flow of words, I conveyed it to him, that you like him.'
'What? What did you do? Huh..... Why?' asked Nao.
'Well, he just understood what I was trying to say......... and he said that he didn't see you that way.'
'Oh.....okay. Hahahaha...It was something we knew all along' Nao said.
She was stunned on the inside. Her brain just stopped working. She didn't know how to react. She didn't know what to do.

But, most of all, it hit her like a lightning bolt, that she was so, so naive to expect something like friendship, from Jack, of all people. She was so stupid to think that he also wanted to be her friend. She was annoyed and irritated at herself for having such expectations. Why didn't she realize it before? He was a shameless flirt. He didn't care about friendship. Not with her, at least. He had talked to her for so long just because she was Mitsu's friend.......The pieces of the puzzle finally fit.

Ah... it all came back to this, thought Nao, as she said her byes to Mitsu. Not all people you meet, think like you do. Not all people want to make friends and have fun and make lots of memories, thought Nao. Because, everybody thinks differently. Some people come into your life, just to teach you lessons. She guessed that that jackass was one of them. And, she was actually very grateful for Mitsu. If not for her, she wouldn't have been able to realize this.
That Jackass. Jackass. Jackass. Jackass. JACKASS.
Nao wiped her tears as she headed home.


(To my fellow Inspirits, sorry guys, I only took the name 'Jack' that Chiyaa suggested. I'm so sorry. But there is a reason why I selected 'Nao' and 'Mitsu' for the two characters. I'm sorry again.)

That was a short story I've been wanting to post... The title was in my mind for a long time... I thought of making it 'The Love Maze' but I don't know, 'circle' just kind of stuck on.

I hope you like the story. Please let me know what you think.
I had lots of fun, while typing it. I was imagining the kind of reactions given by Nao and Mitsu. *rofl*

Lots of Love,
Stay Healthy, Stay Happy.


P.S. : I LOVE the name Akira...It sounds so nice..There are so many Japanese names which sound very peaceful.....


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